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A Reality Check From My Field

Just when you think you finally understand the ground reality, the field humbles you. It shows you how much more there is to learn. That’s exactly why I love fieldwork. It never lets you live in assumptions. For the past few months, I’ve been on field and visits almost every day. Bastar, with all its […]

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Happy Women’s Day?

This morning I was sitting in Makdi Singray village for a discussion on tamarind collection and processing. Normal field day. After the meeting wrapped up, I got talking with Shrimani didi. Just casually, I asked her – “Didi, aapko pata hai aaj kya hai?” She smiled, almost like it was a slightly silly question, and […]

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Intention vs Skill

I have been sitting with this question for a while now. It started when I was in the middle of hiring for my team – going through CVs, sitting across from people in interviews, trying to figure out who to bring in. And somewhere between the second and third round, it hit me: I was […]

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The Green Gold Beneath Our Feet

Nine months in the field changes you. It changes the way you look at a forest, the way you listen to an old woman sorting through dried amla berries, the way you calculate the worth of a single tree. When I first arrived in Chhattisgarh, I came with maps, data sheets, and a vague understanding […]

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The Strength To Feel Weak

There’s a particular kind of sting that comes with feedback that’s true. My mentor’s words were careful, almost gentle: “You’re brilliant at planning and management. But your communication… sometimes you’re reactive rather than responsive.” She wasn’t wrong. I knew it even as I felt myself bristling against it. Here’s what nobody tells you about personal […]

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The CEO Who Wore Slippers

I still remember that line from Macaulay’s infamous Minute on Indian Education, the one weall had to memorize for UPSC prep: creating Indians “English in taste, in opinions, in morals,and in intellect.”Back then, sitting with my history textbook, I dismissed it as colonial history-irrelevant tomodern India, a global leader on the world stage. I was […]

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Learning To Spot The Leopard

May 27, 2025. I still remember that date-my first day in the field. Everything felt foreign: the geography, the society, the communities, even the way people looked at me. I was an outsider holding a clipboard, armed with theories and frameworks from the classroom,thinking I knew what “development” meant. I didn’t know anything. This moment […]

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How Buying a Phone Taught me about Fieldwork

I haven’t had a phone for the last three months. I know it sounds hard to believe, but that’sthe truth. I’ve been using my tablet for calling and for all my other work. In field conditions,carrying a tab everywhere is not easy at all, and when the Republic Day sale came, I finally decided that […]

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Maybe It Wasn’t My 100%

On 11 June, exactly at 6:37 PM UPSC CSE preliminary exam results is out with trembling fingers . I typed my roll number in Holy PDF…. “Sorry! Result not found ” Read the screen. I searched it again and again and the result was the same . I felt a choking sensation in my throat. […]